We don’t want to be friends with you anymore because you are toxic, they said.
You are a negative vibe and we can’t deal, so leave!
They wanted me to rejoice at their mediocrity and to be a part of the so many unnecessary games that add nothing but sadness to my life.
They wanted me to show them how I make money even though I did that several times, but they wanted to know the secret.
The secret there is hard work plus God’s grace, but they believed me not.
So, they decided to cast me out of their circle because I am a bad vibe.
I’ve fought this all my life because I hate to be alone, yet here I am, on the same spot.
I ruminated on all they said and I felt I was the one.
I was depressed and suicidal, but a timely intervention of grace led me to a psychologist who showed me the light.
She showed me how sweet of a soul I am and how amazing my life would turn out if I learn to enjoy the company of myself.
She mentioned that I wouldn’t need to try to fit into any circle if I’ll learn to embrace the peace that the solitude within brings.
Even though it took a while, here I am, celebrating my company with so much peace in my heart.
Poetry by Monsurat Surajudeen.
